"Disappointing you. It's- it's been awhile and I'm not all that good at divorcing physical intimacy from emotional intimacy." It's been a problem in the past. Got him in trouble more than once. This could be awesome for them or...

A terrible idea. Locus expressed reluctance earlier- he ought to respect that.

"...I don't want to make shit awkward." And in trying to avoid it, makes things...tense.