anothercontinuity | Red vs Blue Voicetesting Thread

[ Fortunately he hears him coming, with more than enough time to clear his throat, rub idly at one eye before dropping his hand and turning to look over his shoulder. ]

I...I was just...

[ But his mind blanks on an adequate task that might have kept him here. Or a reason his voice might sound thick, tight.

He can control this, he can. ]

Trying to handle this on your own?

[ He quirks a brow but his voice remains gentle. ]

Remember when I crashed hard your first time driving? It's body chemistry. You didn't do anything wrong then and you sure as shit didn't do anything wrong just now.

[ Offering as much opportunity as he possibly could for Locus to tell him to fuck off, Taylor reaches over to rest a hand on his shoulder. ]

What do you need?

I don't know.

[ Self-assessment? Still not his forte.

All he knew for certain was that the drop-off had been steep, fueled by or fueling these thoughts, these doubts circling his head in the meanwhile. The assurance that he would in fact fail Taylor, that he had no business getting this involved with him in the first place.

His jaw works tightly, eyes flickering back to the dark beyond the pressurized glass. ]

What are you thinking, then? I know you don't really like talk'n about it and you can tell me to fuck off if you want- but if I know what's stressing you out? I can help. I want to help.

[ He circles around, dropping to settle on his heels in front of Locus, hand slipping from his shoulders to rest light and idle on his knees. Just. Points of contact meant to be grounding, nonthreatening. ]

No judgement zone, remember?

[ There's a lot rattling around in there that could be said, but it boils down to one thing in essence, doesn't it? Swallowing hard, Locus lifts his eyes, ignoring that heavy weight in his stomach. ]

What if I'm a mistake?

[ It's quiet, matter-of-fact. He could be. He probably is. And Taylor will be the one to bear the weight of that when it comes time. ]

I could ask you the same thing.

[ What if he's exactly what Locus doesn't need in his life right now? Taylor's made plenty of poor life choices- and that's a trend that won't end soon.

But this? This doesn't feel like one of them.

He rises up enough to loop his arms around Locus' shoulders, tugging him close. Slotting himself between his legs to fit right against him like he belongs there. ]

You're not a mistake, Locus. You are, honestly, one of the best damn things that's ever happened to me. And I mean that.

[ Funnily enough, it helps. Even if he'd rather draw back, try to retreat and nurse his wounds on his own as he's always done, he doesn't push him away.

Instead, his head turns, lowers to rest against Taylor's as his hands curl into his palms. Then, with a deep shuddering breath, those hands come up to press at his back. ]

I'm not a good person. I don't know if I'm good for you. I don't think I'm good for anyone.

[ Not in the sense they're quickly hurtling towards. ]

I knew that going in.

[ The background check had been thorough and massive- even before then when it'd just been curiosity and lust? No 'good guy' comes through his hands, needing his skills. No one lives like they lived and walked away clean to start fresh with the help of a criminal.

He knew. ]

I'm not exactly Mr. Purity either. You don't have to be good for me, man. Just be good to me. Anything else? We'll figure out as we go. This- [ He gestures to his bruises, to their embrace. ] This is- it's nice. It's awesome. I like it- but I can take or leave it as long as I can sit back at the end of the day and call you my partner. My friend.

That's what's most important. Everything else is icing.

[ Just be good to me. He makes it sound so simple.

But he nods anyway. Partner. Friend. They were that without question. It was this new, nebulous territory that had started to raise flags, to put that sense of insecurity at his core. But it's harder to entertain the thought now with Taylor here, reminding him that he knows.

He knows him. Forwards and backwards, all the dirty little secrets and bloody ledgers. And he's here. He knows his faults and still says he's the best thing to happen to him, and he's not sure if that says more about Taylor or his situation, but he's grateful all the same. ]

Remember what I said way way back at the beginning? If you felt shit getting weird and you wanted out to just say the word?

That goes for this too. If whatever this is makes you uncomfortable you can tap out whenever you want. No pressure, no judgement.

[ He'd be disappointed for as long as it took him to get his head out of his own ass but- Having a bro. A reliable partner? Someone he can work with and relate to? That's worth so much more than a kinky fuckbuddy with complicated emotions involved.

He sets that possibility off to one side, busy nosing in at Locus's shoulder. Just. Hanging here, holding him as long as he's allowed. ]

You're not a mistake. You're a choice.

You say that like they can't be one and the same.

[ But he huffs, and it's almost something like amusement. Locus's eyes slide shut and he feels very, very tired. That sensation, the drop or what remained of it, lingers.

But he doesn't want to give this up. And his grip tightens, as if to silently prove that fact. ]

True. But I'm pretty sure this is gonna be ok.

[ Somehow. He turns his head enough to get a look at Locus, giving his waist a tug. He's good where he is for now- doubly so with Locus holding on just as tight- but he looks beat. A good rest would do them both good. ]

C'mon. Let's go lie down and get some sleep, ok? FLISS and D will keep an eye on shit.

[ Alright. There's no real point in remaining here, after all. Lying down seems the more productive option.

So he's tugged up, albeit a little reluctantly. But if Taylor thinks they'll be fine, he's going to hold him to that. They'll make it fine. He just...

He wasn't sure where all that had come from. ]

After you.

[ He keeps an arm around Locus' waist as he walks him back to the main body of the shuttle, tugging down the blankets on the bunk before nudging Locus to slip in first. ]

Dibs on the big spoon.

[ Something about being pressed up against his back helps him feel a little more like he's protecting him. There are implications, trust, yadda yadda- it's also comfortable. ]

[ That gets him a look that's only halfway exasperated, but he's got no interest in arguing. Instead he slides in, legs tucking upwards as he settles in on his side before glancing over his shoulder, waiting.

Well? He'd called dibs.

It was a little strange, growing used to the sleeping arrangements. Instead of another back pressed against his, waking to Taylor's breath against his hair, his heartbeat against his shoulder blades.

Not a bad strange, mind. ]

[ Taylor peels off his shirt before slipping in behind Locus, tucking his knees up behind, arm looping around his waist, nose pressing in at the nape of his neck. The longer hair has started to tickle- but it's a good look for Locus.

He's noticed that he quit cutting it short after he mentioned that long hair made him look pretty and has been quietly pleased with every inch gained. A sign that Locus actually...listens when he talks. Remembers shit. It's nice. Just as nice as having this big, massive back to curl up against. Normally he was more of a sprawler but this is- it settles him. Grounds him. ]

You good?

[ Is he? There's a moment's consideration before one hand drops to rest over Taylor's, Locus's eyes sliding shut. ]

Better.

[ And that's good enough for him, at least for now. That worry is going to remain in the back of his brain for some time. But he can try to do right by him, in the ways he'd never managed to for Felix.

Maybe things would have been different...

But the way they are now? Aren't so bad. ]

FLISS, dim the lights?

[ He noses in against the back of Locus' neck, content. It's a weird fucking feeling after the near death experiences of the day, the argument they didn't have, the apologies made.

But...it'll work out.

They'll work it out. ]

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